Went to the park with a kind of new freind. Had a blast talking about phone pranks, cable access and music. I reccomended some David Sedaris books to him. My favorite is Holidays On Ice. Saw hot book store guy today and invited him to party, he is surely hot and weird but I don't like him like that, I wish he would date my best friend. Cleaned up the yard it was really bad today, watered the rose bushes and set up the pool. I heard it is going to be super hot tommorrow! Yuck! I wish I was somewhere near the ocean to swim and see tide pools right now. Made our weekend plans with the bf for tommorrow and Sunday and have to start compiling stuff and shopping for the party! We can not wait! We have not had a good party since like 2001 or 02 maybe. No parties compare to the ones long ago with costumes and the stupid microphone. Those were the best. We also have to get back to going out bowling. We used to love doing that. Busy days ahead have to go to bed for now

Ok today I am feeling bad about not using the treadmill! Ha Ha ha I dont know if I just ate way too much cheesy potatos or what but I feel bad tommorrow is work out day for sure! I will be up bright and early I hope to use that machine if it kills me! I feel bad today as if I have gained twenty pounds over the past four hours or so!
But in other news this weekend was great! The Best Friend called me Friday to say her mom is now cancer free! We were ecstatic it was such a great day! This is a person that was told recently that things were not looking good and to just take it day by day and hour by hour. This is the miracle that everyone prayed for held their breath and now it is here. This is phenomenal person being rewarded finally. So we went over there to celebrate. Stayed up late to catch lightening bugs and watch The Chronicles of Narnia it was like being a kid again but better because we ended the night with a post midnight run to Dunkin Donuts. Saturday was the big party at the hall and it was a blast we sat with some people we did not know very well and we left there with plans to see them again soon. The party continued all night long at a neighbor's place with some rum and a fire pit, perfect beginning of summer party!
Sunday was one of the worst days of my life I have to say. It was phenomenally bad even for me ha ha. I have to say that never ever in my life have I wanted so desperately to grow some wings and fly away far and fast. The only thing that made it slightly endurable was the saving graces of the my boy best friend who loves to be the hero and the girl best friend who is so aggressive and loyal. Despite enduring the unendurable that day and living to tell I do feel lucky to have friends that I know now more than ever will always be with me til the end and keep me safe.
I am having a hard time lately I don't really know what's going to happen. I am resigned to the things I can not control but I know I can control my outlook and my reactions. Staying focused and composed right now is most important and that is all I can resolve to do. If things can just slow down for the next month or so I think I will be on the other side of this casm.
I have now just planned to enjoy the summer full tilt and take it one day at a time. Soon enough things change.

Today was a fun day for someone who really should not even be out of bed, I have had a fever and been very queasy and shaky but I had the bestfriend over again today and we had a nice time relaxing around my house while she should have been at work technically. Had a nice lunch but since then can not even think about food at all. I sat outside in my yard enjoying fresh air when it cooled off while the lady behind me screamed into the phone that she was leaving her hubby and that he is this and that and the other. It made me very sad for her and sadder still was the fact that her kids were sitting on the porch with her listening to the entire thing. That is a real shame. My Sephora package arrived today and I didnt get a chance to try out any of my free stuff I did in fact use my new Urban Decay lip plumper and it did in fact work wonders! It was the highlight of the day I guess, but little things like that can be exciting when you have a high fever and cant get much else done.

Had an interesting weekend, a few surprise phone calls here and there but everything worked out ok as far as I know for now. Worked on a dress I am sewing but made the bust too large ha ha story of my life, ordered some new make up and lip plumper can't wait to try it out! Best Friend came over Saturday and stayed the day despite my bad cold which only got worse but I tried to make the best of it during Sunday lunch with the other best friend, the male best friend who has a gf that does not exsist in my world. I have yet to meet her and he never ever talks about her to me, it's bizarre I guess but he never mentions her or anything about her. But anyways we had an ok despite my misery its always good to see your freinds no matter what. Did alot of planning for the bbq this summer I hope it will be a great time for everyone and a good chance for everyone to meet new people. I am dying to meet more people around here but there really arent any that are that cool so far. I put off some knitting I have been meaning to do and still have not finished my vintage purse but I will get there. Finished a really good book, I would have never picked it up it looked too post menopause for me truely, but I really needed something new to read and it did the trick and then some, I really liked despite my cynical ways and I even teared up at the end. I did not try to cook anything new this weekend like I had planned, but I did make some good spaghetti today when the bf was here and she liked it well enough. We had a nice fathers day here yesterday as well and my brother in law acted a fool as usual. I have never disliked him but like real brother and sister we don't hide our feelings about things and we do bicker often, we are more alike than we had ever thought I guess. I got my Windsor Pilates tapes for now they are sitting next to my treadmill that I have not used in a great while. Someday I guess. I was planning to go to the Zoo tommorrow but I do not feel up to that, my fever is down but I just will not enjoy a day out at the zoo right now. I will think of something fun to do though.

Well no big surprise but I did not use my treadmill today and I do not feel badly about it at all. Instead I worked on organizing all my craft boxes and that was a big job, who knew I had so many piles of yarn and fabrics? I still have boxes of vintage fabric in the basment to go through as well but I got plenty done today while listening to Weezer and Rancid this afternoon. I am looking for some new books to read but havent yet found anything that interests me so far. I tried flipping through Dianetics at the book store but it was just nonsensical I cant for the life of me understand what is interesting about it, and it was harder to understand for me than quantum physics. I have a meeting to go to tonight so I did make myself over slightly and straighten my hair. I am still looking for something to make my hair straightening easier, I have a box stuffed with products I don't care for and I hate to throw them all out but I just don't use them. However I am loving my Bag Balm lotion, I think its the best thing for hands and feet when you are done gardening. It does not smell very good at all but it makes a huge difference. I didnt do much yard today either I was not in the mood to be out for very long becuase I really can not stand my neighbors anymore. It seems like everytime they see me out their kids are either standing at the fence lifcking it, seriously they are that gross or screaming at me about going to the movies or other nonsense. The dad also disturbs alot of the time, he has informed me repeatedly that he is stuck in an unhappy marriage for the sake of his kids and that his wife is cheating on him and he is ready to do the same, well it will not ever be with me and I don't care to hear these things from people I hardly know and do not want to get to know. And when this man is not making disgusting overtures at the fence in his flip flops, he is singing, yes singing loudly into a microphone in his garage. He goes into the garage in broad daylight and does acapella versions of "I will always love you" or "Song 2" by Blur. While it can be amusing at times and the neighborhood kids have told him to his face that he should "shut the hell up", it is mostly just irritating and shameful. So I didnt really venture out today much but I certainly had plenty to do inside. I havent joined any swaps on that site yet but perhaps after my meeting tonight I will take a look and see whats going on there. I hope this meeting is fun and that there will be lots of cool people my age there to talk to but I am not too optimistic about that.

I am new to this blogging but I am excited about it because I always have alot to say and I think it will be fun even if no one reads it. Right now I think this blog will let me brag about whatever it is I am currently knitting/sewing/reading/doing and the silly circumstances I always seem to find myself in.

I have a had a busy weekend I am still tired. I went to lunch with a friend to teach her some knitting and we had a great time talking about growing up togethor. We have known eachother about ten years and have had our ups and downs but lots of great memories. We love Violent Femmes alot and talked about how loud we would play it in her car, and how each time we went I took whatever guy I was hanging out with at the time. I don't ever talk to or think about any of those guys anymore but I always remember how much fun she and I had dancing our asses off all night long. We talked about sleepovers and first sips of alcohol and first real boyfreinds. It was so good to reminisce and have a laugh over things that really plagued us years ago.
I also somewhat started a new dress. I hope I will finish this one, the new dress I started for last summer is still in pieces under my sewing machine.........this one is far less ambitious so there is hope this dress will turn out lovely. So there was trips to the fabric store to get lots of supplies and then frustration over reading the pattern to myself.

My best freind slept over Friday night to watch movies here and eat Honey Hut Ice Cream.
We made lots of plans for things we want to do this summer, go to Flea Markets and go see some movies and Vast.

I am knitting a nice new purse for myself, and also working on an old vintage leather I found for twenty five cents last summer. Both are coming along pretty well but I really hoped to have the vintage purse done last summer honestly. And I still have the koi purse to sew togethor, Ahhh the damn Koi purse that seemed like such a great project for the summer, well the embroidery part came out great if I may say so, great for someone that can't master french knots or draw that well, but the fish looks like a fish and the cherry blossoms around it are very nice. I still have to add some beads and sew it up into a cute little clutch. I wish I could get my friends into sewing and knitting its hard when you are the only one and they dont want to learn but want you to whip up purses and scarfs all the time. I dont mind at all but it would be more fun if I had someone to work on things with. I joined a craft swap this week so maybe I will correspond with people that can teach me new things. Actually I found this blog on a link there so its already been somewhat helpful I guess.

The cooking is also coming along ok so far. I am only doing like one thing a week but I made a really good teryaki chicken last week it. I will try making something else this week. Perhaps seafood. I made crab legs once and that was super easy for me so maybe something a little more ambitious this time. I used to cook everyday but I never really knew how, my cooking was ok and very humble, lots of slow cooker recipes and simple stir fry but I would like to do alot more complex things. I like to eat so I might as well put more effort into it. I like to eat cake and pyrogys too much.

I have gained some weight but I think I am ok with it. I tell myself I am ok with it atleast. Fat and happy for now. My treadmill is collecting dust and I don't feel guilty when I walk by it. But maybe tommorrow after I clean up and do some garden work I will make the effort with it. Hopefully tommorrow at this time I will be blogging away about how much I accomplishedm but we'll see about that.